The Journey Continues

Since my last blog post I have been largely pain free. I am of course taking a reasonable base dose of pain medication regularly and I am not sure how much pain I would be in if I stopped taking all that. But I have not had to take any extra pain meds since Thursday. I have a very tender liver where I believe the bleed occurred last weekend, and I have to be quite gentle with myself. I am also finding I am sleeping much more during the day than I have been - on Sunday I slept for over 4 hours in patches and I was very comfortable and relaxed.
I had wanted to go and see my son's weightlifting competition on Saturday, but I was feeling quite weak that day. However, I did force myself to go, and it turned out fine. Patti took a cushion for me to sit on, and I managed to watch Zeke's whole event in relative comfort. I was also surprised that when I got home I was not totally exhausted, like I have been so many other times. In total I was out over 2 hours, my biggest outing since my bad weekend.
I have been surprised at just how exhausted my body can become, and how quickly it can happen. I have, in years gone by, pushed myself pretty hard physically, both through sporting events and doing home renovations. I have worked so hard that it seemed every muscle in my body was aching, cramp was setting in and I was finding it difficult to continue. I have however never gotten to the point where I could not seem to put one foot in front of the other or not stand up on my own. This is what happens to me now, on a rather routine/daily basis. My body is clearly working hard on repairing itself, and I just have to accept my physical limitations at the moment, although this can be very hard.
I have enjoyed a very small number of nice visits over the last little while. As I continue through this low energy phase though it is difficult to commit a time to any particular visit as I could well be sleeping. I have also taken to unplugging the phone when I lay down just to ensure I don't get disturbed.
There are a number of things coming up over the next several weeks that would normally involve me. With the events of last weekend, and knowing that could happen again, I am taking things one day at a time. I cannot predict how long it will be before I can make firmer plans and participate in life more, but I know that day will come. I just have to ride this out and try to stay upbeat during the low times.